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Caroline Patricia; Jersey;
I live by the rule of "Accept nobody's definition of your life; define yourself." I am my own person and cannot be compared to anyone else. I have extremely strong opinions on things and usually I share them on here. I vent on here like it's my job. Don't like it? The un-follow button is in the top right.
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Hello World
I know I haven’t been on in a while, but I really need to vent. Some of you probably don’t care & honestly I probably wouldn’t care either if it wasn’t my problem, but if that’s the case, that’s fine, keep scrolling.
I’ve been trying so so hard lately just to find the positive in things and I’m struggling beyond belief with it. It’s almost like I don’t want to be happy so I’m looking for the negatives and trying to feel sorry for myself. The thing that’s killing me the most is that I’ve completely lost all hope and faith in God. I never ever thought I’d be sitting here in this position, but I am. I’m literally sitting her empty handed, with no one to turn to. I threw my hands up in the air and gave up, and I swore I never ever would, and now I have. Where do I go from here? I’ve given up trying in school, trying in sports, trying to be a good friend, trying to find a good guy, trying to a good kid, literally everything. I know I disappoint my parents and it sucks to let them down, but I honestly don’t know where to go from here or what to do. I know so many people have it worse than me to an extent unimaginable, which is why I hate sitting here and complaining about bullshit, but I literally don’t give two shits about anything anymore and it sucks. I’ve pushed away everyone who cares, well cared, about me.
I’m a broken-hearted, crazy mess.
It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re seventeen and planning for someday and, then, quietly, and without you ever really noticing, someday is today.
(Source: alexandragrey, via jennniferrrlynnn)
“I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.”
Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
ibtcholla:
hearing this would literally make me the happiest girl in the world
maybe I’m not gonna be with you for the rest of my life, but being with you right now is good enough for me
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